Desperation

Ok so it has been a while since I blogged but I have reached a point where I feel I have to blog again, so far all has been going well since last year October, work was great I had the pleasure of working on a project in Abu Dhabi then a bid in Abu Dhabi with Zaha Hadid architects. In short it was going well, after I finished that I was sent back to the Interchange it was going to be a new challenge but all it has been so far is a reason to jump off a bridge! I am point break with this project and the people, I have reached another level of boredom and slipped into a coma!.

CA has a terrible sense of communication and I am getting tired of asking why? the thought of doing more then one task at a time is beyond CA's capability. The rest of em MF can all do one to...I mean self obsessed materialist shits. I not sure how long my threshold can stretch anymore but my choices are limited, how do I move on when I still have to finish my ptII pt. I feel this invisible ball and chain that is getting heavier every day.

Oh well for now, the diss is going well, its progress not as quick as I would like to have been but I have been suffering from low blood apparently, them whatcha ma call em doctors took my blood and tested it, so the fatigue has not been from "over working" not a likely possibility or even the gym (to work out the frustration of the day) but more a hemoglobin thing. I think I will be back again to vent again so I'll catch up with you soon.

U.S.A - John Dos Passos

The trilogy which spans the first several of the decades about the US and the culture along his life he has encountered. The book is very disconnected in the sense that the many characters Passos reveals through the camera eye and the newsreel are – static – they don’t have a relationship with each other and it is like reading many articles. His writing was experimental at it’s time so this is one reason why it almost feels like a work in progress for a bigger outcome.

Overall the culture of the American dream is totally flipped on its side through the detailed captured moments of history of people’s lives, again the static feeling that is not going anywhere…..and just informing you. The experience of the American Dream is the underlying issue for most of the newsreels. The dream is unsuccessful through the depiction of the characters normal everyday life the sadness, tragedy and happiness, they were maybe full of ideas which never really emulated to anything neither did they for fill the ideology of the American Dream.